Sunday, December 12, 2004
wow. after chatting with someone ive not kept in contact with today, i am so amazed, i dont know how i will sleep tonight.
at 17, this dude has 2 daughters. they live with him AND his parents, and the 2 gurls call him dad. they're adopted.
he pays for
all their expenses. the 2 gurls are currently 12 and 14, and the elder one has already completed her o levels
o levels!! u saw me right.
14, o levels completed. im 15 and im still a year away from taking my o levels.
im now so inspired ive my mind set - i will and must go through the jc route, and juggle work and studies. so now when im still in secondary school i must keep my part time job and take it as a preparatory for the years to come.
i will save up some money at the same time, and when i have enough savings and a stable job, i will move out. then, after a few years or so, i expect myself to be financially independent.
then, when im fully able to support myself, i will full time save up. just plain saving, scrimping and more saving. to add to my savings.
then when im mentally prepared and finanically secure enough, i will adopt.
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its not that after talking to my friend i wanna adopt coz it seems cool to. NO WAY!
i did think of adopting years before today. just that i didnt give my dream much attention. now, it just seems like god has paved a route for me, coz i didnt have any before!
i dont know, coz if i want to get my plan going, it would take me years. i give myself 11 years. i believe i can get it done within 11 years.
and what about my love life ure asking? if the guy cant accept it then he get lost.
anyway, people get married coz they think theyre in love. but the flame will die out someday, and for many, it dies out too soon. if they happen to have kids already some just stay together for the kids.. and remain best friends..
this is the truth.. serious. very few people die as a couple still loving each other. i know you may think im crapping here but i dont think i am. just go outside and ask.. but whether you'll get a answer or not is another thing. it's too personal a question to ask 'do you still love your wife/husband?' and anyone would lie to save trouble.
i dont know how to love & stay in a relationship. but im learning. its difficult to force open myself, like what i did today. it was so tiring.
if i dont make an effort to socialize and learn how to love, i would be totally anti social, i would wanna hide in a corner, avoid people and not talk at all. so its, yea, im practically acting and trying every moment.
so haiz!
anyway, long live dreams.
xoxo
joce-lyn
11:05 PM
